Monday, June 28, 2010

The A & The of a Nobody

As long as nothing is questioned, everything becomes a part of something. A Culture is just the unchanged-practice changing. When no 'Saffron Brigade' could stop the wedding of one Hindu-Man with another Hindu-Man, we surrendered Nature to... Aculture.
If Something is the 'Ultimate', 'Greatest', and 'Best' in world, then... why it is so 'different' for the rest of individuals? Is it to prove that everybody differs with everyone?
Many years back, when I was studying 4th std in Baba School, I and my 2 classmates took an oath in the class to join Indian Army. That was day when our prime minister Indira Gandhi was assassinated and our classes suddenly got cancelled. As kids we wanted to take revenge for the Prime Minister's murder by joining the Army, without knowing anything about reason or consequences of that assassination. Today I am not in the Army and feel that my feelings of revenge as a 4th std kid was strange. If I was ignorant as a kid, now I am even more, as an adult.

"Change will be there, from our conscience till our absence".
If I ask myself why do I Change, then I question myself as who am I? A Lioness is identified as a Lioness from birth to death. Same is the integrity of a Male Buffalo. But I am now identified as a "Film Maker" which is just about me, but not... me.
Even my birth name, gender, status, religion, beliefs, morals or my activities cannot be me. They could only define the noun, verb, adjectives etc... about me.
Then I think about all the mirror image reflections' of this world passing through my consciousness to the sub-consciousness... must be the reason for all these developmental changes that made myself into this Somebody... But, then, Somebody is also not me???
May be I am just "A Nobody!"
So I now understood that anyone can easily become "A Somebody".
But impossible to become that "Nobody!"